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Most Successful Male Porn Star Of All Time Speaks Out On Porn

Most Successful Male Porn Star Of All Time Speaks Out On Porn


[MUSIC PLAYING] Back in the early ’80s, I went
to California to pursue acting. I actually did pretty well. I got a manager, an agent. First week I was there,
I got a motion picture. I remember thinking to
myself, “What’s the big deal? This isn’t so hard.” Well, then the writer
strike happened. Everything in
Hollywood shut down. Certainly actors, producers,
directors, costume people, florists, caterers–
nobody was working. So everybody started to
get hungry, including me. Well, I subsidized my income
by doing modeling work. And one particular job, a makeup
artist handed me her card. And she said, “If you ever
want to do any nude work, give this number a call, and
you can make some money.” Well, I took it. And I was grateful, thanked
her, knowing full well that as soon as I did
anything like that, it would ruin my career. Well, after about a
month of starving, I decided that I was going
to make that phone call. I had a can of beans and one
can of potatoes in my cupboard, and I was hungry. So I made the phone call. They said, be at this
place at a certain time. So I jumped on my motorcycle
the next morning, and I went. And I made my first porno. I walked out of there
at the end of the day with four crisp,
brand new $100 bills. I got on my motorcycle,
and I drove home. I was thinking
how easy that was. But I also remember
thinking, what have I done? Someday, someone, will find out. Well, little did I know that
it would turn into this. I became the most popular,
most decorated male adult film star of all time. The phone never stopped ringing. The money kept getting
bigger and bigger. My mother had no idea. She was completely
taken by storm. Shocked her, hurt her. I didn’t know what love was. I didn’t even know if I
could feel love anymore. I looked at women like objects. There was no emotion involved
in the act of making love. What was that, making love? I had sex for money. I was a prostitute. I couldn’t feel anymore. See, for me, I had to go
to work to do the porn, so that I could buy
the drugs to bury the pain of doing the porn. So I’d go to work
and do the porn, so that I could buy the
drugs to bury the pain. And around and around it went. What pornography
did to me was it changed how I thought
and felt about women. I began to look at them even
more so as a sexual object. I lost the ability to have a
loving and caring relationship. I thought I was still
able, but I was fooled. One day, I left the set. I was done for the day. Got in my car. Started it up, drove two blocks,
pulled over and turned it off. And I started to cry. I wanted out so bad or to
get off that merry-go-round. That’s the last movie I ever
made, and I never went back. I changed my life. I began my life. You see, if I can change
my heart, anybody can. [MUSIC PLAYING]

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