Dealing with Bad Art Days · Inktober Day #5

Alright you lot. First off, I wanted to just take a second
to acknowledge the fact that we made it to 200-thousand subscribers on this channel. It doesn’t even seem real to be saying that,
and I just wanna say thanks for being here, and just how incredible it is that in such
a massive community there’s so much kindness and accepting and supporting of each other. I really do feel lucky to have each and every
one of you here. So welcome to the new peeps, welcome to the
fam, and shoutout to my oldies who’ve been here since I was filming videos with my phone. Anyway, today’s drawing… mm. I wanted to draw an industrially, a little
bit post-apocalyptic structure that was haunted by toxic radiation. I wasn’t as excited about the idea as I
had been with my past drawings but I still had a good idea in mind of how I wanted it
to look. But I was having a bad art day. So… A bad art day for me is like a bad hair day. It doesn’t matter if you’re doing something
you’ve done a thousand times before, using the tools you’ve always used, doing something
that always works out, or something you can at least adjust and fix and eventually work
out when it doesn’t go to plan… on a bad art day, it’s like the world is against
you and your brain isn’t communicating with your hand. Everything that can go wrong will go wrong
and every mark you make is another mistake. I’m sounding a bit dramatic, but when you’re
in the moment that’s what it feels like. You get exasperated and frustrated and the
most disheartening part is that you keep going, keep trying to salvage it, but the more you
do to try and fix it, the worse it gets. The first thing to know about bad art days,
much like bad hair days is… no-one really notices. It might sound bad but people aren’t gonna
see the drastic, tragic difference that you see. They might notice somethings a little off
compared to your more fluid, neater or more harmonised work. But I promise you, your perceived disasters
don’t stick out like the sore thumb that you think they are. That’s great to remind yourself when you’re
done with the drawing, but a lot of the issue with bad art days is finding the will-power
to keep on going with a piece of work that’s uncooperative and fights you at every brush
stroke. The idea of giving up and starting again can
just be so tempting. And by all means, if you feel you can do a
better job, drastically better job, by starting over, there’s nothin wrong with doing that. You learned for your mistakes of the first
and you can chalk that last drawing up as a practice. But that’s only if the piece you’re working
on is unsalvageable. For me, and I know this isn’t easy, but
I just kind of keep going. Plod along. Remind myself that I always kind of hate my
work until it’s done anyway and hold out the hope that if I keep going I’ll actually
end up with something I like. I acknowledge the fact that I’ getting frustrated,
but in noticing that feeling and labelling it, I’m stopping that frustration from spiralling
and taking me down into a hole of self-doubt. Thinking to yourself ‘I can feel myself
getting annoyed’ is a lot different to feeling annoyed. If that makes sense. It might only make sense once you’ve tried
it. So I sigh, when the ink I’m using to add
a hint of rust isn’t orange, its actually pinky red, and it spreads farther than I anticipated
and it stains the page so I can’t get rid of it. I think ‘ugh, typical’ but my hand doesn’t
stop moving. My thoughts are separate from my actions. My body is kind of on autopilot and I just
kind of scramble to do what I can to fix the drawing. And then I think ‘I’m getting frustrated,
this is a bad art day’ and somehow just saying that in my head makes me a little bit
less frustrated. Enough to keep my positivity high enough to
keep going. Bad art days are hard, but m advice is to
stop yourself from spiralling into frustration by noticing and acknowledging how you’re
feeling and to stop your thoughts from taking over by letting your body do the work, keep
your hand moving and let your mind tick away in the background. Just don’t give up. That’s all for today. See you tomorrow for the next one. Bye!

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